Souless

This is the consequences of having long break (actually just 3 days), especially you had so much quality time with your kids. Souless, sad, heavy hearted and feel to give up are the best words to describe me now. My new career just started a month but it feel like years. How much longer can I hold?

I keep think to myself, let's settle the debts and save some money then home. Sound easy but it's real tough. I think to settle debts, I need few more months but to save a small fortune is challenging. Ideal plan is to stay there 2 years at most and worst case could be 6 months if I can settle the debts and at least save a bit of money, provided I also found an offer locally.

Last night, my son ask her mom why time flies as I will leave KL tonight. He keep ask her mom when is exercise day (it's normally Friday where he will dress up in exercise suit) because I will return to KL the next morning. It was so sour when I heard that but I keep thinking to myself be strong. I hate to give up half way but I also hate myself to leave my family behind. Can you imagine or try put yourself into my shoe and share what will you do?

I may sound weak and a failure to others but why forcing yourself to do something you don't really want? This is a very subjective question because it really depend what kind of character you are. I'm not business minded or those very optimistic type but just a simple man and sometimes like enjoy life. Sigh ...

I've reached KL Sentral since 10pm and now blogging to kill some time. Gate isn't crowded for now and seems no passengers in group. How I wish it's 2 weeks later where my family is travelling to SG with me ;)
Time reaches 11:20pm and the gate finally open for boarding. I was thinking to myself quickly get into bed, close the curtain then sleep but suddenly realised that I'm getting 1st class this time (I think should be the last time for the season) and suddenly feel down because I don't really like that.

Today seems different as the staffs seems more friendly and there was a door gift when I step into the room, which never happen before so far. Also the food was delivered once I'm in there and last round have to wait for 30 - 60 mins, sometimes even don't have. When I take a look at those door gift, it's consists mineral water, towel (will collect before I left tomorrow), immigration white card and some utensils like toothbrush & paste, shower cap, cotton bud, lotion and razor. Nice, I can keep them for future use :-

This round is 2B, deck J1

The door gift

Goodies bag