So decided to tell them that I will consider if they did what I've expected and that will be on following Saturday (before I travel back to SG the next day) ... which they did met.
For weekdays, I really have no time and zeus to bring them as they normally finished packing and tuition around 9pm and they need to sleep early as they still need to school the next day. Therefore, weekend is the best choice.
Yesterday, when I was buying my sinful lunch, received a call from Rose's mom telling me that they have organized a steamboat session for today's dinner!? Yes, you heard me ... dinner. I was paused for a while because the long expected dinner from my kids (and myself of course) was ruined and was upset but on second thought, their aunt also being generous and kind to them so I've told her that it should be fine and I will discuss with the kids.
For reasons, my son told me that he don't want to watch Ice Age 4 and then followed by my daughter. I'm not sure what went wrong but they don't seems to like cartoon? Or maybe they are getting boring? Should I just keep quiet in the future until they ask for it?
While I was still moody, I've no choice but to hold and keep calm and told my kids that today they will need to attend as it was their aunt's hospitality to invite them and a lot of preparation need to be done. Also, we can't be selfish that only to join them when I'm not around. I guess they were a bit disappointed and hope they will understand me.
After dropping them at aunt's place, my mood fall like a roller coaster which I already expected since yesterday. Keep thinking and remember things I've done with kids like chatting in the car, visit few regular shops in KLCC while awaiting our table a Chillis and of course the quality moment we have during dinner. Also went pass to those kiddy rides along the walkway which my kids used to play when they were still small. For all these, I'm doing all by myself today, this time and very moment. I hate to suspect the kids rather prefer just to have the nice dinner instead appreciating me as their dad, spending quality time with them.
They are now growing up and expose more to their mom. They don't really as close with me as before the incident and mainly I'm spending more time in SG. It is very lonely and painful to be alone and facing all these by myself but this is fact and it will come sooner or later.
To add pinch of salt, I'm actually writing this blog at a public bench and next to Rock Corner (music store) in KLCC and they are broadcasting those sentimental and oldies song which make my my more down and think a lot of things ... just like flashes of memories.
Now just adjourned to Chillis, alone. Though it's so much easier to get a seat alone by slipping thru the crowd and walk straight to the bar counter. It's just that I'm all by myself now, enjoy the drinks and dinner with my shadow and iPad. Will wait for their phone call to fetch them later ...
